It’s been a long long long long time since I updated my blog a lot has happened in 5 years which kind of detoured me from a flow of creative work like this, that I was so used to for so many years. That’s not to say that the creative incubation came in other ways (physically growing new life), I entered into a portal of which there is no return nor could I ever imagine going any other route in life. It lead me to thinking and trying to grow in areas in which I’ve never considered. Which I realise is all of life, but feeling and seeing life form, from my own body really takes me into a marathon way of doing everything. And to be honest, with many things creatively before, I felt I was sprinting. Also running into, and away from aspects of my life, which for the past few years, since children, I am dedicated to face. I could not use creative outlets as distraction as I wasn’t afforded the time to do that, and so through mothering, had to face it, which of course is hard but also the greatest quest I have endeavoured this far in my life.

I will never stop having so much to learn but the simple desire for presence above other outlets for coping has shined a light upon my path which allows for my life a deep well, of calm and rest, also joy and intrigue. Something I always had trouble with was feeling capable, I often felt intense fear and kind of the sensation of being gagged, voiceless, stunted (although I thought I was lazy), but really I felt like I was living in some kind of liminal space. I recently have been learning some more about the teachings of Carl Jung and it has helped me get a grasp on possible ways of thinking and soaking in life, which has aided to further understanding of others and thankfully myself, I’m not so afraid to write any more, I feel more capable than ever and am just excited to use my 30’s to connect my inner world to the outer tangible and hopefully be kind enough to myself, to let myself enjoy it.