For the last few weeks we have felt as though (and this is quite a normal feeling by now) we are in transition, again. It hasn’t been easy for Christian or I to be in a physically stable place. We’ve always hoped for the best in everything and truly been looked after :) So now, all over again - we do it again! In the next couple of weeks we have to move homes, have decided we may as well start building a home (I’m sure we will share more on it soon), we are also heading to Canada where we will meet with the Hollow Tree team and I’m sure I will fall in love with the place.
Last week I was denied entry to the USA on the only visa I think is suitable (this was sad as it’s Christian’s home country and it just didn’t make sense in reasoning to me). I guess we just have to keep pushing to see a bigger perspective. The hardest part of it all was a week or so ago, we realized, in the middle of the night we were having a miscarriage. It was our first pregnancy and I didn’t realize how rapid the bond would grow or how painful, physically and in my heart the loss of a forming baby would come to be. Now - every day I wake up with an explosion of emotions within me, I carefully try to take down time to sought through each thought feeling and action - for everything - It doesn’t always work out the way I try but I will continue to try. And we always say when it feels as though so much is coming at you negatively - you know the devil is fighting hard because just around the bend God has something incredible. I do believe this, I know we have so much to grow into and be and do and feel and it all takes time, but in the small decisions true character is formed.
I am so excited now for the antiques to arrive here, to re-launch the store, to have a permanent home, to try again! Soon we will have a physical space we can share with others, 2019 will be a good year, i know it.